Roller Coaster Ride

This is one roller coaster ride I'd rather get off.
I'm sure I can't be alone.

One day it seems that things might be getting better. She's doing a little better. Maybe she's turned a corner. Maybe...
The next day, she can't seem to grasp the most basic concept that I repeat five or eight times. Her attention is totally gone; she can't focus for more than 2 microseconds. Then I get frustrated. Then I feel bad.

I get reports from everyone else who works with her that she does everything so willingly, she's so sweet, never complains. I guess she saves all that other stuff for me.
I wonder why no one else gets as frustrated with her as I do. Is it because they don't let the uncertain future cloud their emotions today? I try very hard to do that but often fail.

She IS wonderfully sweet and my heart practically bursts when just looking at her sometimes, fully enjoying the joy that she is today.

But then we have homework... :(